Upset (work)

very upset 3 big bad news i heard...
firstly the market drop badly...affect me badly...
secondly the new rules come out affect my earning...
GVM just wan us to die in this line...
and our comm DROP!
i reali dunno how to survive in this line anymore.
and setting up company dunno is rit or wrong?
perhaps VERY wrong coz my stress level go all the way up...
very soon maybe i will just lost my job like this...
haix....hw long can it last?
i want to study!!!
so if anything i can still find a better job outside if not...i'm dead cause my fix expenses and expenses monthly is way too high.
As such i wun want to go see doctor anymore..
why?
i can't afford...that's simple...
i'm poor...:(
at this moment when u face financial difficulty who will help u????!!!!!
who???no one everyone run away...
is like that de....watever....i knw human mind...
if i have 20k now everything will be solve...:(
but i dun like to borrow also...cause same u need to return...and who will lend u such sum of money...
those ppl that lend u u wun be able to handle the interest.
haix wat m i thinking....nvm
will pull thru eventually i wish....

SAD :(

I truly hope u will understand my emotion movement...
i can't possibly be happy all the time...
and all the time i fake it out...
i feel much more terrible den ever...
i'm not giving u face...
sometime just upset sometime just tired...
but i love to be with you...
i love having you by my side...
and i hate all our conflictment.

*thanks my cousins for always had me in their heart.buying things and take personally to me...thanks alotz i appreciate and i love u gals.