Finally understood

I just ate my medicine...that strong wan.After that medi can't go out can't drive can't do anything...my head very pain n my hand shaking after that...haix
i reali didn't smoke nor drink cause i dun wan make it worse...
let see wat doc say after i finish my medication n see him next week again.

The feeling with her realli differ badly frm the past...
i dun understand why...
maybe she dun like me as how she use to or maybe i askin too much frm her??
can't feel anything better...

perhaps i should try to shift my love over to another her...
thinking to go LA on dec...haha...to visit her...
loving her is much more easier...
maybe i should...nope not coz she just spare one...she's not...
she understand me too well...but well she leave...i know why...

reali bad the medi reali make my head spin n my hand my heart all shaking...
too strong?no idea...sldn't be ba...watever...going to lie on bed rest...as wat doc say after finish blogging.

i want to have the feeling back that u reali care n loved me...
but i guess u told me it's over long ago...n i should know...
wat m i hopping still when we are just friends?
i did appreciate ur many tries...i did feel something but yet something is amiss...
our character actually crush???
perhaps i just treat u per normal and u can feel actually i'm a reali nice person to be with....hahaha...i just go too easy for u till u think i treat u bad when i didn't...when i just wana feel closer to you...
i think i should give up loving n insisting on loving you... .. . .. ..

well well well....nvm .......u know i believe FATE.... :)

cant take it ...go tak a nap first...
n i miss crazy time with my friends.

bye.

Sign off ,

Sam Sam ( Mostly called by ppl who dote me...hehe)