If

I just reach home,
very tired but yet came in to blog before dawn breakout.
i'm afraid dawn breakout i will forget what i wana say to my blog.

i was just telling her 'if...' after i send her home,
but well she too tired to listen,i too tired to say either...
actually there's no 'if...'
i just talking rubbish as the night gets older...
wat happened already happened n it already become fact...nothing changes...

suddenly i miss my parent...today supposely with them but i din..
luckily ytd i did went out with them...
i love them...they are the closest human who never leave me...
if ever they leave...i guess another BIG break down for me...
so i pray n pray for them to stay with me as long as it cld be...god PLS...
once again sorry to make them worry for me again n again...

thanks for letting me hug u real tight...
i got no regrets with anything and i reali do cherish the moment with u thou i know u thinking of someone else...but it's alrit...
go on talking n talking just becoz i can't bear to part with u...
again...even 24 hours with u or 48 or 56 n so on will not be enough...
cause i start to miss u the very next min u part with me...
but we will never be one...

i have a long chat with her today...
well things are fine...everything are fine...
she said i m moody...
infact i am not...just tired...
i am reali reali not robot...haha
m breaking apart soon...i mean my health...
so i guess i must hang out lesser coz of my health...that simple...:)
i need to take good care of myself.hehe...:P

today is mon...many things to be done...
n well...
everyday is same for me except i will feel happier on fri sat ...haha...
but well again...i guess i need to be homely again...

nothing matters...
as long as i got my parents n my lovely home sweet home...
haha...DVDs...TV...Com...hehe...with me can le...

i got nothing to sad about...
my career everything was fine...
infact i got everything...
maybe the things that will make me moody...is the past...:)
well trying hard not to let it affect me thou...

*ying ying ur depart still make me upset...missing u too....grandma ur depart never stop my tears...i miss both of u real much...in heaven u be happy i pray...n here i am here....always missing you******************FOREVER!

for now my mind is occupied with TIRENESS....haha...gtg sleep le...

n to her * Thou we can never be one but i love you.

I hope to find the girl for me to give this song to which played in my blog now...almost 2 years i still have not yet find the one to give this song to...'Zhuan shu tian shi'...