Cries

Suddenly my heart feel all the pain
painful!
i miss my grandma badly and now my tears flooding my keyboard...
looking back at our pics and video...
i still can't accept that she is gone and i want her back so badly so badly
wat can i do wat should i do?
i told her if i have my own car i will drive her around
and now i have it...
why why she dun wait till i succeed
why she have to go?
everyone say she can live very long but why why all the sudden??
she oni 78! some might say very old already but no to me 90 then consider old.
9th jan 2008...i will never forget the day when she leave me alone here...
she go without a single word...
she too weak to express out...
and i cried so badly shouted for her to wake up...
till now...till now...i still want her back
but how can when she already become ashes...
I LOVE YOU 奶奶！！！
nothing compares the love i have for you ....no no no!

i am very troubled...
i am unhappy...
yes i have all i need everything...
but yet why out of the sudden i feel so BLUE!!!

maybe when i see my wife(Car),i will be more happy...
who know?
awaiting...

i just wana drown myself in my dreamz...
dun wana wake up...wana sleep forever coz only in dream i find perfectness...

* Missing who???