back and go

long time din blog
well my readers should know most of the time i blog coz i m down
yep...
rather down...
my grandma admitted to hospital again and this time round more serious case
anything more important then her?
no not money neither is ur lover
i see it now...
i wana cherish the final lap of my grandma life...
with her i wun cry...

After my grandma
i should be going to US...
tired over here
so fucked up...
i hate pretenders liars but there so many surrounding me

as for her
i got nothing to command
she lead her own life
'watever' is the only word left for her
i cldn't endure all her concept
perhaps we have different view
i cldn't accept a friend who sleep around
yucks...i despise them yes i do...
and so i starting to dislike her...
i decided to give up on her...
cldn't bear with it anymore...
there's no reason for me to continue to accept her...
i dun wan to influence by her and luckily i din...
a leopard will never change it's spot...
she will never change
a fullstop to this chapters of my life finally...:)

my heart somehow ache...
to lost so many things at one go...
it does pain me deeply...
but i have to be positive...
in life there's still many thing for me to pursue...
and my dream still waiting for me to reach...

i can spend many sleepless nit feeling the heartache
i can tears without anyone knowing
but i wun look back!
i will stand strong again...i know..............

up from above...
u looking at me ....
i know u the only one who will be always there for me...
thou i cant see u
i cant tok to u
i cant touch u
but i can feel u...
i reali reali miss u so much...
n u will never be replaced!