Losing my heart and soul ` Pray for my late beloved grandma ...

You will always be in my heart
i love you and now u leave me here alone to face the darkness of everything
i know u can never be back again
but till now i cldn't accept that u are gone
i still call for u
it's too late .... u can nv be back and i wanted to be with you...
my grandma... ... ... ... ... ...

my life very bad

-my most beloved grandma had pass away on 9th jan 2008
-i've make a mistake in work,pay up to $17k or kana sue or better scenerio i resign!
-my mum wana divorce my dad,wanted to sell away the house
-everything failed in my life

i want to run away as far as i could but yet no matter where i turn to i see nothing but darkness...

i know u are always there,
thanks to you n her...
if not for both of u,
i might feel even worse thou now not much better after i heard the bad news from my work...
somehow i guess god testing me...
but this test is too tough for me to handle...
i breaking apart...

* i love her and i know she care for me too...but somehow why we can't be any closer...i can give her nothing now...i see no light in my life...she might be happier without me...i do not wan to drag her down with me...

i hope as time goes by my life will be better n better
and i will come back for everything... ... ... ... ...