*Her & her

Just a quick update before i go to the main topic
Had a car accident ytd...damn bad
haix...
waste alotz of money this 2 weeks...
a few $k spend this 2 weeks...
heart pain but nvm i believe i can earn everything back
my work not smooth at all
many obstacles...
but nvm i wun give up...
grandma getting worse and family same..

After one yr plus,
i finally got the chance to tok to *her
she told me she believe in fate
i am too
i din reali try all my might to win her back as i believe if it's meant to be,
we will be together again
i told her as long as she is happy it's enough and make sure she's xin fu
i will be there for her no matter wat
if she feeling lost she can come running back into my arms
i will shelter her from harm
cause i love her still...
sometime it's just so amazing
cldn't explain why after so long i still love her
but i wun deny or escape from that
i'm afraid she's angry
i scare she's upset
she got a gf now
i know
as long as she is happy with her gf now
i wun even wan to try to step in
until den fate meet us again
maybe yes maybe no but if yes
i promise i will love her with all i have n never doubt her love anymore

As for her
i tried with her before
i tried to love her
but again n again she disappoint me
i know i also at fault
my hesitation is becoz of *her
i still love her so i cant be with anyone
wana hurt no one n not even myself
i know she not the one i could own
and i'm not the one she can be with too
n den why we are still trying?
i rather be alone den to force myself to love

when i hug *her
the feeling is different from i hug her
haix...
it's just another conflictment
i know i know deep inside my heart
wat's my feeling was...

I just hope n pray that one day i will succeed in life
*with her with me