wat m i suppose to do?

it seem wrong no matter wat i do
i am different from all the others
i understand her thots
and i know how much it hurt
somehow my breathing stop
she feel the way i feel
n here i'm trying to be hero and act strong
pretending nothing happened
i guess it's all about fate...
you should know by now
you should understand
after all that we been thru
i pray we can make it there
i wanted to surrender my love
and only you
but it seem
i couldn't reach u
i fall in the waiting hell...
her,her and you
but now i fallen into the darkness of truth...
i dun wan anyone to suffer with me...
i wish n pray i'll be fine...
i wish n pray it will be over soon...
i wish n pray my tears dun fall...
i hope n pray i could see ur lovely eyes whispering into my ears 'everything ok'...
i just need some comfort words
some comfort hugs
some comfort from you
but yet i push it all away trying to act strong and survive on my own...
wat happened to my life?
God save me
why u thrash away everything i own like this...wat did i do?
why why n why?
why all negative news came like this?
why am i still acting nothing happened?
how m i suppose to make know to anyone?
i'm losing my balance...
i'm falling off...
I wish tml a better day...
i wish that i am just having a bad dream but no i'm facing the reality...
i will be man enough to handle it all...
cause i know i got to reach where i want to be no matter wat obstacles i need to face...

*i need u near
i need u here
like i never need it before

>> Miss u like i always do