Here i am

Here i am
dropping myself into hell
pulling away from the reality
telling myself to be strong
but yet tears keep falling apart
wanting you to hear my heart
and u pretend it's unsound

coming to the end
walking at the eadge of the cliff
looking up the sky
it's all devils that i saw
no angels come along
echo through my mind
telling me is the end of ur life
if that's the true
i never want to try
awake by the sound of dropping stones
look up everything will be fine
for you know life goes on
and you know it's the beginning of everyone's pain
once you thought going away is the release from all your pain
but again life is full of selfishness
or left with no choice to choose from
and u kept on wonder why?

my grandma is diagnoise with terminal cancer
i dun wish this is the fact i got to face
you know how much she meant to me
and i never want to lose her now
do i have a choice
giving up all i have
but yet nothing save her life
I LOVE YOU GRANDMA

Tired from the pressure
struggle till i bleed
leading to nowhere
facing the days like dead zombie
dun wish to count the days as it move
stop!
wanted it to stop right now
but yet the clock ticking it away

I need u by my side right now
but i realize
no one is there to share my pain
all i have is myself
and i know i got to be strong to face it all
i know if that's wealth n joy
everyone will be there
human mind are like this
i dun agree
but now i see the true
how can i deny?

i pray for u everyday n night
hoping to see u get well
hoping to hear something nice
but being positive
doesn't make me feel any better
coz hopeless is what i feel now
all i can do is to be with u till the end
but i'm afraid
pool of blood and tears will reveal if ever u leave the world
God bless...

By,

Hopeless
numbless
depressed.....Sam yong