Nothing

Actually nothing for me to blog...
just very bored in office that's why even so must find something to blog
me rather moody today
maybe PMS? hahaha...
do power always outcast ur soul?
i guess so
once you have power
you overwhelming by ur power until u are a changed person till u didn't realize
i seriously hope i wun be like this
YuCckKKKkksSsss....

i think i have to make a trip down to south india again or africa
so that i realize how fortunate i am
sometime i m so lost until i couldn't find myself
sometime i feel no meaning of doing what i've been doing
sometime i feel sucks
and sometime i doubts every single one surrounding me
i even do doubts myself...haix

it's just so scary when people tend to drift apart
and slowly become passerby again
when someone faded in ur mind n heart
no one will be with u forever
everyone will eventually leave
now i see the meaning of being alone
alone in whatever i do...
leaving in a world full of peace
no conflict
no trouble
no different opinion etc...

i am proud of what i am actually...
i always let down my pride and rather ppl get happy becoz of my stupid action
but i m not stupid
i am a good actor thou...haha
i just want everyone to be happy
but sometime i do ask myself
m i happy when they dun even know wat i've done for them
when they stabbed my good intention
oh well...
living in this world
u should be able to stand on ur own feet and be ALONE

i hate being negative
but negative thinking keep crossing my mind and i have to tell myself again and again to be positive but i m tired...

i think all i need is time...

* i miss no one as for now...but...my mind and heart is not stable...is shaking!