Finally Broke up after 5 years

I know it been a long long time since i last update. Whenever i'm here is always unhappy time.
I finally broke up with her after on off for five years...I really loved her but i don't think she really loved me...the way she treat her current gf is very differently...maybe i was all along a fool...i should have know earlier and give up earlier...she stop loving me for quite sometime.I cannot love her anymore i know but i still love her.What am i suppose to do?no one tell me how cause even did...easier said then done...all i do i do for her...i just want her to be happy but is not as easy as it seem to be...I wanted to be with her forever but i know it's impossible...she is in other ppl arms now everyday and i can only upset here alone everyday when she dunno at all or wun feel anything anymore.She given me tonnes of excuses until now still giving and she didn't realize...i know her fb is becoz of her gf that's why she dun wan add me but she keep deny.It's not important...i hate her coz i still love her...but i do not have the heart to hate her....this the worse part.It's the third time she stabbed me...again n again my heart soften.This time round i can't even thou i still love her...not only cause she dun love me anymore.is also because of my family...i need a change....change to someone else again....8 years i nv be a girl...i dunno how it will be like but i need to do it for everyone happiness...cause only then i might get away from loving her....She requested to work with me...i agreed but how i wish we succeed together as a couple and now it seem weird...i suffering day and night...she will never know...i lied to her i attached because i want her mind to ease and her r/s with her gf get better but i am left alone painful in a corner...a corner that no one can ever see...God pls save me from this darkness and no i have to focus focus on my dream n not her anymore.i can't afford.my family need me...my car need me....and my age i can no longer choose the way i want to live until i m there perhaps...but true love seem too far for me now to be true....