Verge of dying

Nothing goes well...
no matter wats in my life...
losing almost everything slowly...
not being positive?
how to be positive when u tried n fail again n again?
when things goes so wrong n nothing seem right.
u just felt disappointed so much so much in life in urself in others.

well i will try ...non stop trying to be positive.
but not now...now my heart sank too much.

Trust is not there and for that it will destroy everything.
Let someone go if u dun love her at all.
My waiting all go in drain.too tired to even hope now.hopeless.
Giving up on her...totally...can never pin any hope on her anymore.

Everything in dark.
And i really hope one of these day someone will show me the way to light and bring me alive again cause now my soul is missing.

*with her without her,it's still me.But without my grandma,no longer me and till now i still missing her n will miss her for as long as i live.