Pressurized
This post meant for many people...
I am thankful wat god have given to me...the chances...the gift of my life(family)...the unique me...everything...
Dad : I cried ytd painfully...badly...u know why?...because of u...i try so hard not to let u worry about me...i earn my own income...i provide for family for myself...but i dunno wat to do to make u understand?...I know as a dad u care too much beyond...n this add pressure to me unknowingly,i told u before but yet still the same...I din mean to shout at you and put down ur phone rudely when u called me ytd...but ur words hurt me...it does hurt me so much...I want to earn alot of money...u know that...i got no more time left...you know i say it i did it...so trust me!i already work so hard...why no one appreciate?...i know that sky wun drop money for me...but do u noe how much pressure i facing?...not less den u...i have grandma...mum...bills...half of ur car installment...myself...my dream...even i earn 5k/mth it's NOT ENUFF!It's not enuff for me...i got too much commitment n expenses...
I have to think far...i cldn't just think of present!Dad i love u...n u already so old...u have to rest more...plus everyday u need to wake up so early to go work also...me n u different coz i m young...i can take it...even u say u can take it...my heart pain...pls...rest more...dun wait for me to come home anymore...go slp dun wait for me...it's ok for me from 8am to 5am but seriously as u age i know it's not ok for u...
I love my grandma the most!...she brought me up...i will never forget...n all the tears she shed for me...i m sorry...i brought her out to buy new year clothes last last sunday with mum n sis...can see she very very happy...ah ma...dun worry about my pocket...all my money brought there is for u to spend...overshot also nvm coz u r my beloved...not at all i feel a pinch of pain...even i give u my everything...it's not even enuff to repay ur kindness to me...never enuff...so promise me to live to 100th...i will give u everything u want in life!...Last sunday...my ah ma more happy den ever...coz my DAD mum sis n me brought her out again...i suggested to bring her out almost every sunday n let her see the world...she can't sit airplane...to i bringing her to go make passport n go virgo big big ship one day to play...hehe...she say she scare...i told her virgo ship so big wun move de...whahaha...actually i dunno have not been there...anyway last sunday we went to vivo city walk walk den see the new train we go to have a ride to sentosa...haha...
my grandma cant walk much so we intend to go just for a ride...but den she saw so beautiful den we alight at one stop bring her go merlion...hahaha...$8/adult!...but anithing it's worth it...we have a GREAT DAY!...with her i m more den happy...seeing her smile is ever i wish for every single day...she can't walk stairs more n i suggested to piggy back her...coz not very long stairs...i still can tak it...my ah ma very skinny...but she dun wan...so me n my sis hold her one behind one at her side...dunno this sunday can go where...keke...i think i ask my ah ma first...hohoho...alotz of pic...i think i wun upload here wana see ask frm me lor...
I guess u nv fail to read my blog...once i thought we r possible but yes both of us cause everything to drag trumendously...forgive me...i nv meant to lie at the beginning...ur smile is still the most beautiful smile i have ever saw...but *she someone i cldn't be able to give up...it's unfair to anyone if i step into a r/s n my heart hold *her still...this is nv sam...if i step into a r/s...i will only love my one n only gf...no one else!Well...i wish u all the best in ur love life...work life ur family n all...:)
When can i ever hear u sing the song in my blog again?...I miss u dearly...when can i ever walk out from ur shadow?i love u so much until i still unable to find my way back...i dun dare...so afraid to see our memories animore...coz somehow everything is stable...i dun wan to shake my heart animore...but i can't deny...i think of u every now n den...i can't deny...i still standing at the place where u left me just waiting for u to turn back...i dunno when is the last time i hold u but if i know tt's the last time i hold u...baby i will hold u real tight...i wun shed any tears but i will pour it all inside my heart...just to let u noe i m strong enuff to let u go to find ur freedom...ur happiness....if u understand me...even i dun shed a single tears...u can feel my heart feeling weak...dying inside...coz it's YOU! I know definately u loved me before...but i want to ask...are u happy when u are with me?I apologize if ur ans is no...I m thankful if ur ans is yes...
the ans will forever be a mystery...I lose her completely...even we do chat sometime nowadays...she no longer the one who loved me...Still i'm gladful tt i've met u once!
*when u love someone so deeply and that someone love u back as deep...u will hurt that someone deeply too...unavoidable!In r/s we often give up but in family...NO!*
I am thankful wat god have given to me...the chances...the gift of my life(family)...the unique me...everything...
Dad : I cried ytd painfully...badly...u know why?...because of u...i try so hard not to let u worry about me...i earn my own income...i provide for family for myself...but i dunno wat to do to make u understand?...I know as a dad u care too much beyond...n this add pressure to me unknowingly,i told u before but yet still the same...I din mean to shout at you and put down ur phone rudely when u called me ytd...but ur words hurt me...it does hurt me so much...I want to earn alot of money...u know that...i got no more time left...you know i say it i did it...so trust me!i already work so hard...why no one appreciate?...i know that sky wun drop money for me...but do u noe how much pressure i facing?...not less den u...i have grandma...mum...bills...half of ur car installment...myself...my dream...even i earn 5k/mth it's NOT ENUFF!It's not enuff for me...i got too much commitment n expenses...
I have to think far...i cldn't just think of present!Dad i love u...n u already so old...u have to rest more...plus everyday u need to wake up so early to go work also...me n u different coz i m young...i can take it...even u say u can take it...my heart pain...pls...rest more...dun wait for me to come home anymore...go slp dun wait for me...it's ok for me from 8am to 5am but seriously as u age i know it's not ok for u...
I love my grandma the most!...she brought me up...i will never forget...n all the tears she shed for me...i m sorry...i brought her out to buy new year clothes last last sunday with mum n sis...can see she very very happy...ah ma...dun worry about my pocket...all my money brought there is for u to spend...overshot also nvm coz u r my beloved...not at all i feel a pinch of pain...even i give u my everything...it's not even enuff to repay ur kindness to me...never enuff...so promise me to live to 100th...i will give u everything u want in life!...Last sunday...my ah ma more happy den ever...coz my DAD mum sis n me brought her out again...i suggested to bring her out almost every sunday n let her see the world...she can't sit airplane...to i bringing her to go make passport n go virgo big big ship one day to play...hehe...she say she scare...i told her virgo ship so big wun move de...whahaha...actually i dunno have not been there...anyway last sunday we went to vivo city walk walk den see the new train we go to have a ride to sentosa...haha...
my grandma cant walk much so we intend to go just for a ride...but den she saw so beautiful den we alight at one stop bring her go merlion...hahaha...$8/adult!...but anithing it's worth it...we have a GREAT DAY!...with her i m more den happy...seeing her smile is ever i wish for every single day...she can't walk stairs more n i suggested to piggy back her...coz not very long stairs...i still can tak it...my ah ma very skinny...but she dun wan...so me n my sis hold her one behind one at her side...dunno this sunday can go where...keke...i think i ask my ah ma first...hohoho...alotz of pic...i think i wun upload here wana see ask frm me lor...
I guess u nv fail to read my blog...once i thought we r possible but yes both of us cause everything to drag trumendously...forgive me...i nv meant to lie at the beginning...ur smile is still the most beautiful smile i have ever saw...but *she someone i cldn't be able to give up...it's unfair to anyone if i step into a r/s n my heart hold *her still...this is nv sam...if i step into a r/s...i will only love my one n only gf...no one else!Well...i wish u all the best in ur love life...work life ur family n all...:)
When can i ever hear u sing the song in my blog again?...I miss u dearly...when can i ever walk out from ur shadow?i love u so much until i still unable to find my way back...i dun dare...so afraid to see our memories animore...coz somehow everything is stable...i dun wan to shake my heart animore...but i can't deny...i think of u every now n den...i can't deny...i still standing at the place where u left me just waiting for u to turn back...i dunno when is the last time i hold u but if i know tt's the last time i hold u...baby i will hold u real tight...i wun shed any tears but i will pour it all inside my heart...just to let u noe i m strong enuff to let u go to find ur freedom...ur happiness....if u understand me...even i dun shed a single tears...u can feel my heart feeling weak...dying inside...coz it's YOU! I know definately u loved me before...but i want to ask...are u happy when u are with me?I apologize if ur ans is no...I m thankful if ur ans is yes...
the ans will forever be a mystery...I lose her completely...even we do chat sometime nowadays...she no longer the one who loved me...Still i'm gladful tt i've met u once!
*when u love someone so deeply and that someone love u back as deep...u will hurt that someone deeply too...unavoidable!In r/s we often give up but in family...NO!*
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