I'm fucking upset!

I m fucking upset today...
it's just not my day...
i've lost something so dearly to me...
and i noe things that r lost u can nv find it back...
i almost go crazy today...
i search high n low for her...
i can't find her aniwhere...
n finally when she appear right infront of me...
i hug her so tight...
n next second i burst out tearing...
i can't take it anymore...
infront of her i can just be as weak as a baby...
she asked me wat happened...
she always call me 'yongyong'...hehe...
well think of her of coz i will smile no matter how bad my day cld be...
but after all the smiles...
eventually become tears again...
i really hugged her until she can't breath...
i wet her shoulder definately...
maybe i starting to feel she is someone...the one who i can burst out all my problems and things to her...she's someone i want to cherish...

I din make it...
things wasn't come out to be what it should be...
something just crop up and make it gone...
make my dream gone...
i hope it's a mistake...
i hope...now all i can do is wait for tml and know the result...
hope god fooled me today n wun fool me for tml...
Thanks for everybody who try so much to help me to get through this challenge...i hope tml i wake up...i've win the battle!

* Juli thanks...i know u go all out to help me...u sincerely using ur heart to help as much as you cld...thanks for the blanket that you put on for me while i m aslp...thanks for the paitence n kindness u show to me...just wana say thank you! *

- My mind is damn messy and confuse right now...i need someone to show me the light -

< Fucking upset day! >