Until the feeling subside...
ERm...took a taxi to sch today...car sent to repair will be alrit this afternoon...just a small scratch....damn it n it cost me 150 dollar...but it's ok la...money arn't important...keke...
Yar finally she understand n noe why i leave her world...yes this is the reason i'm leaving...after i see the show i don wan u to breakdown one day like how she do ( in the show ) so i choose to give u my last love n go...neverless i'm not the man inside with no feeling but just play...i got tt's why i choose to go b4 everything out of control...b4 i see ur tears again...no i nv want to see ur tears again...as long as u r happi n on the go...i m contented...all the things tt have done n said...i can carry it on my shoulder alone as long as u have all the happiness...think of u...of coz...of coz i do...who dun...i m not heartless creature...my emotion r strong...i will endure with the pain of missing u until one day the feeling subside...no not gonna ask y to myself animore...dun hold ani hope animore...false hope could nv be in my dictionary...fu chu is wat i will do...for love yes...it's sacrifies make...thou i force myself to give up...to let go...to let u feel i m gone...but all this shall keep it within myself till the day u understand...aniway i noe u r gone n u will nv read this but just wan to write out all inside my heart...haven i always love u frm the day i start to lay my eyes on u...nv love someone like the way i love u...not going to mind anithing as long as i'm with u...but now...i m not holding on...now is...i not going to mind anithing as long as u r happy...not going to mind if i really happi...if there's pain behind all my smiles...if i still love u...all this will be hide within the tallest mountain tt cannot be seen...but definately i miss u...
*I hope i hope...i pray i pray...for u...for ur happiness...*
continue at 11.49am
I got everything go wrong...haix..think dere's no more chance for me to be able to get over with this semester...going to flung my sem..haix...*sobx*...i dun wan study le la...aniway so many thing i give up...study also can give up la...haix!...why m i such a stupid fool...y m i so STUPID?! argh...!!!...*sobx*....even crying for god also no use...god can't even help me when i can't even help myself...*sobx*...under intensive care...so weak now...but who care?!...
*I pull people up but i fall myself to death*
continue at 5.26pm
Erm...why i keep on blog...erm...coz my feeling got to let computer noe...haa..no progress...m in deep deep shit...haix!...2 mre day left...no more hope...*sobx*...staring at the code helplessly coz is my mind with the code?...haix! no is not...my mind is thinking of *** every min...terrible i noe..but as i say...i got to bear with it until the feeling subside...haix! But for now can't even concentrate with anithing...argh!...my teacher ask me to go physical fitness test n is a must...haix!...tian ar...i sure fail de still ask me go run...haix aniway it's next week so dun think first...think of fri where to go first...haix!fri & sat is the oni day i can put everything off n drive ard but haix!...will be driving alone for a spin this fri...to let my mind rest...seeing singapore nit view...haa...i now shall go home slp...wake up face the feeling again ba...this is life...haix!
*Telling myself to be happy...but tell me how?...haix!*
Yar finally she understand n noe why i leave her world...yes this is the reason i'm leaving...after i see the show i don wan u to breakdown one day like how she do ( in the show ) so i choose to give u my last love n go...neverless i'm not the man inside with no feeling but just play...i got tt's why i choose to go b4 everything out of control...b4 i see ur tears again...no i nv want to see ur tears again...as long as u r happi n on the go...i m contented...all the things tt have done n said...i can carry it on my shoulder alone as long as u have all the happiness...think of u...of coz...of coz i do...who dun...i m not heartless creature...my emotion r strong...i will endure with the pain of missing u until one day the feeling subside...no not gonna ask y to myself animore...dun hold ani hope animore...false hope could nv be in my dictionary...fu chu is wat i will do...for love yes...it's sacrifies make...thou i force myself to give up...to let go...to let u feel i m gone...but all this shall keep it within myself till the day u understand...aniway i noe u r gone n u will nv read this but just wan to write out all inside my heart...haven i always love u frm the day i start to lay my eyes on u...nv love someone like the way i love u...not going to mind anithing as long as i'm with u...but now...i m not holding on...now is...i not going to mind anithing as long as u r happy...not going to mind if i really happi...if there's pain behind all my smiles...if i still love u...all this will be hide within the tallest mountain tt cannot be seen...but definately i miss u...
*I hope i hope...i pray i pray...for u...for ur happiness...*
continue at 11.49am
I got everything go wrong...haix..think dere's no more chance for me to be able to get over with this semester...going to flung my sem..haix...*sobx*...i dun wan study le la...aniway so many thing i give up...study also can give up la...haix!...why m i such a stupid fool...y m i so STUPID?! argh...!!!...*sobx*....even crying for god also no use...god can't even help me when i can't even help myself...*sobx*...under intensive care...so weak now...but who care?!...
*I pull people up but i fall myself to death*
continue at 5.26pm
Erm...why i keep on blog...erm...coz my feeling got to let computer noe...haa..no progress...m in deep deep shit...haix!...2 mre day left...no more hope...*sobx*...staring at the code helplessly coz is my mind with the code?...haix! no is not...my mind is thinking of *** every min...terrible i noe..but as i say...i got to bear with it until the feeling subside...haix! But for now can't even concentrate with anithing...argh!...my teacher ask me to go physical fitness test n is a must...haix!...tian ar...i sure fail de still ask me go run...haix aniway it's next week so dun think first...think of fri where to go first...haix!fri & sat is the oni day i can put everything off n drive ard but haix!...will be driving alone for a spin this fri...to let my mind rest...seeing singapore nit view...haa...i now shall go home slp...wake up face the feeling again ba...this is life...haix!
*Telling myself to be happy...but tell me how?...haix!*
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