Amazingly
Perhaps...
amazingly someone who i dun always see care much more for me den someone i see everyday...
today i lose grip of her
she's gone...
i still dunno how to love and in my process of learning...only someone with paitence can make me learn and still be with me always.
i don't expect much...i dun feel real big hurt cause i expect this outcome.
i don't really feel close and feel love all the time from her...
only sometime she give me the feeling...is this real love?i doubt so...
but anyway...we are officially over.
Still...i thanks her for being with me thruout all this time...all the up and downs in my life and all the sweet moment she given to me and for everything.
From 2008 nov till now i facing big financial problem.
it's always money issue for me so now my pirority is to strive and earn as much money as possible for now.i do not have much energy to think of other stuff.
i love u baby...i truly do but i have to let u go...for now my temper will be real bad i admit because my life not the way like past...i'm stuck with troubles with problems.i hope u could understand my position.u never know me?i thot u know me the best thus u bearing with me but why are we qurrelling non-stop cause of my temper.u are rit maybe ur temper is as bad that's why.we lack of understanding and trust,we never survive while building it up that's why we crash this relationship with our bear hand.You say i love to push blamn.i'm not,i know my problem but it's really hard for me to try to make u understand and communicate with you coz you already think what u want to think.i'm a bad person.i know.never i am a good one.that is why god is punishing me to lose everything i have in life.I WILL BE BACK...as long as i try,as long as i learn,as long as i have faith.i will make it back.m i rit god?
i classify my life to have everything is 1) Career 2) Family 3) GF...
now i lose everything...i WILL build it up again.
family bond is easy...coz my parent still with me...
2nd is my career then have a gf(my future wife)....
i can do it... in 2009 i will build up my family and career.
as for GF....she will come when the time is right and we will walk down our dream together!
BABY lastly i wan you to know...
i know it's hard for us to change ourself to accomodate with each other and to be much more loving but i am really very happy whenever i am with you...your adorable your smilez your hug your kiss and for all u given to me.
you take good care,i wun be by ur side anymore...no more...another person will take over my place to take care of you.maybe will be better den i am...i wish u the best and hopefully when we got the chance to see each other again...you see the real sam yong up again!!!
.I will use 2 months time to solve my financial issue
.I will be a better me
.I will love myself more
.I will clear my room day my day and start over again
.I will be MDRT!!!!!....:PPppPPpp
***I love you grandma(left me for one year),i love you mummy,i love you daddy,i love you sister and cousins...till now i still love you baby(until further update)...
opps i have to say i love you grandpa also thou he left me for 14 years already...hehe
Always be my baby ... for *her only
to be continue... .. ...
amazingly someone who i dun always see care much more for me den someone i see everyday...
today i lose grip of her
she's gone...
i still dunno how to love and in my process of learning...only someone with paitence can make me learn and still be with me always.
i don't expect much...i dun feel real big hurt cause i expect this outcome.
i don't really feel close and feel love all the time from her...
only sometime she give me the feeling...is this real love?i doubt so...
but anyway...we are officially over.
Still...i thanks her for being with me thruout all this time...all the up and downs in my life and all the sweet moment she given to me and for everything.
From 2008 nov till now i facing big financial problem.
it's always money issue for me so now my pirority is to strive and earn as much money as possible for now.i do not have much energy to think of other stuff.
i love u baby...i truly do but i have to let u go...for now my temper will be real bad i admit because my life not the way like past...i'm stuck with troubles with problems.i hope u could understand my position.u never know me?i thot u know me the best thus u bearing with me but why are we qurrelling non-stop cause of my temper.u are rit maybe ur temper is as bad that's why.we lack of understanding and trust,we never survive while building it up that's why we crash this relationship with our bear hand.You say i love to push blamn.i'm not,i know my problem but it's really hard for me to try to make u understand and communicate with you coz you already think what u want to think.i'm a bad person.i know.never i am a good one.that is why god is punishing me to lose everything i have in life.I WILL BE BACK...as long as i try,as long as i learn,as long as i have faith.i will make it back.m i rit god?
i classify my life to have everything is 1) Career 2) Family 3) GF...
now i lose everything...i WILL build it up again.
family bond is easy...coz my parent still with me...
2nd is my career then have a gf(my future wife)....
i can do it... in 2009 i will build up my family and career.
as for GF....she will come when the time is right and we will walk down our dream together!
BABY lastly i wan you to know...
i know it's hard for us to change ourself to accomodate with each other and to be much more loving but i am really very happy whenever i am with you...your adorable your smilez your hug your kiss and for all u given to me.
you take good care,i wun be by ur side anymore...no more...another person will take over my place to take care of you.maybe will be better den i am...i wish u the best and hopefully when we got the chance to see each other again...you see the real sam yong up again!!!
.I will use 2 months time to solve my financial issue
.I will be a better me
.I will love myself more
.I will clear my room day my day and start over again
.I will be MDRT!!!!!....:PPppPPpp
***I love you grandma(left me for one year),i love you mummy,i love you daddy,i love you sister and cousins...till now i still love you baby(until further update)...
opps i have to say i love you grandpa also thou he left me for 14 years already...hehe
Always be my baby ... for *her only
to be continue... .. ...
posted by Jin yong at 4:01:00 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home