Moody

Tired and very moody
slept at 8am in the morning
don't know what myself is doing
maybe i lost myself

i am stupid
i am slow
i am coward
u need to work hard for something that u want
i agree
but when it come to r/s
isn't it
it's meant to be it meant to be?

i am scare of rejection
but that's what i gonna face soon
i have to be prepare
even thou i shall break down n cry
not infront of her
i must do it

i feel like drowning myself in a pool of liqour
get me drunk
and forget all my troubles
or let me cry out loud
even thou i've cried for so long
it's not enough
the hurt is too deep to use tears to replace
somehow i hope someone could understand
i'm not strong
i din say i am
infact i am weaker den any other girl
but i dun care
watever
anyway i will be stronger n stronger i suppose

* You don't know,you don't know anything,you don't know a single thing,no one know

continue...

get away from my life
don't get near me
let me be alone
don't even be my friend
till i wake up from the nitmare
haa
i'm not fit even to try
i'm not fit even to act
i'm not fit for anyone in the world
i am a rubbish
i am crazy
simply
i'm dead long ago
fuck
i'm abnormal
just hackcare me

GOD granted me this
my greatest parent who never give up on me
money!
but
god i' not at all happy
career i wun give up for the sake of my family
but god who know
the pain u created years ago enough to took my breath away
friends?
u give it to me
but god once again
u din let me wake up from the nit mare
how i'm i suppose to fit to be even have friends?
i m a nonsence to everyone
to myself even
i dun even know wat m i doing
i dun even know where m i
maybe god u told me
singapore is not for me to stay
leave n go as far as i could
but god i m lonely in US
yes i did become stronger as no one around
but god once again
if i go back to US den?
could u set me free
oh god why u give me a adnormal memories?
i am drowned in tears in blo0d
god give me a choice
a choice to choose
grant me this chance
maybe u did but god
i am crazy
tune me back to my world
the world i once have
the smile i once wear on whenever i go
i know u just want me to be special
but god not in this way
i even hate myself now
how m i suppose to hold on to other
if i m born lonely
god bring me to your side
your arms i shall stay

*i'm not sam yong...just call me crazy freak