Wild

Just got home...
just bath...
feeling sleepy...
but let my hair dry itself first..:)

i dun wana run away...
i dun wana hide...
but i can't take it...
i dun understand...
y nowadays all the youngster so wild...
isit becoz of the music?
isit becoz of the pain?
isit becoz of the liquor?
isit becoz of the past?
or isit just being wild?

I guess i'm too old for this...
wun wan to club anymore except special occasion...
it's not meant for me...
the place is too wild for me...
pubbling still fine for me...
i dun wana see any bad side of girls...
anymore...
or the crazy side of myself...haa

guess my next gf should be mature enough...
not a clubbers definately...
my heart is too weak to take that...
once in a while fine...
but not often...

she invited me to go her birthday...
sorry i have to reject ur invitation...
as mention i'm not a party person...
i do not need to change for anyone...
and i guess let's say forever goodbye here...
i wun tok to u anymore...
not in msn...
not sms nor calling...
wun see u anymore...
not scare of u...
it's just that...
you are just passerby...
and goodbye eternally...
all the best!

being a flirt...
no way...
i wun allow myself to be...
i just wan to settle down with a true girl...
it's that simple...

anyway after i bath come out...
i feel fresh...
i am really lucky...
i feel good...
shouldn't have let anything affect me...
i'm not a kid anymore...
yeah...
haha...
let the tears beyond...
it's just a moment of emotional getting wild...
but i m fine afterall...
still alive n kicking...:)

Go on with my way...
finding my gf...
hopfully my future wife...
i dun ask for much...
but just for a true heart...
n a protective body...

I might be going back to US via october...
i postponed from buying my own car...
i think going back US is more important den anything...
at least i can seek peace overthere...

not escaping...
just taking a good rest overthere...

God let me see a different me...
let me be wat i can be...
dun waste my talent off...
god lead me the way...
that it should be...
i just wana be wat i wana be...
STRONG IN HEART! *i pray