Falling apart

I have never ending problems...
i am too tired about that...
financial difficulty.
I try to control the situation as much as i cld.
but whenever i settle one thing,one come the other...
money nv seem enough to clear the things i must clear...
i am very very tried MENTALLY...
i feel like disappearing into thin air,not letting anyone find me...
i realli feel like giving up.

Same goes to my r/s...
i failed to control it...
the more i try to control the more the grip lossen..
im at the verge of giving up...
i really love her...
but something make me failed to feel that way...
her tonnes of excuses and reason make me tired at times...

i am lost right now...
all i hope is someone who i can tok to...
so that i can pour everything out to that whoever...
hold the someone to cry as long as i want as loud as i cld...
before i TRY again...

God please stop the troubles i have right now...please stop the pain for me...please stop torturing me like this...

****Breaking apart.... .. .. BADLY...