Happy birthday sharon!

Gosh it just like ytd when i last blog...
I realli din noe time flies!
Pls dun go so fast...slow down abit can anot?!

Alrit i change my blog skin finally...
erm...i make my own skin coz i dun wan same with anione...lolx
And sorry i din noe how to change the font color...too many too messy so i leave it alone...if very difficult to see...my apologies...

I cldn't get to slp...
reason very simple...
since my buddy's birthday...
my time twisted again!
Terrible...
going to be vampire again!

Thanks my 3 cousins who give me my very first 21st birthday present...
haha...
i haven open up yet coz wait till tt day...
realli thanks...
i tot no one wld remember except my buddy...
Since when i last cut cake...
i din noe...=>
Maybe this yr have cake for me to cut or maybe not...

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Remember last time we said...
we will get marry when i reached 21?
but 2 more wk...
i noe the miracle i waited wun cum...
but i remember clearly...

U wun be back i noe...
i don even noe where u r rit now!
but!
i will nv forget u...
u r still the perfect angel in my life...
sorry of all the things happened becoz of me...
It's been so many years...
But u'll always gonna be my first love...
Be it dreaming or wat...
You r the one i can nv forget!

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While i watch a very damn old show just now...
in fact nothing to do i watched many show...
but tt wan realli touched me...
Romeo and juliet...ahaha...
Impressive love...

I m bored...
I stay at home the whole day...
i m so homely nowaday...
oh shit...haix!
maybe just being lazy...

HappY 21st birThdaY to ShaRon!

* The feeling will go soon...i noe it will *

All my friend all 21 le...
seem nothing to dem...
but to me...
i'm so old...
isit without her to love me i m just nothing?
21st should be happy but...
for me i m so scare...
it keep me wonder wat my future wld be...
I dunno wat i m so afraid of...
n i dunno wat i m pressurizing about?
i love wat the tv say today...
'u r not useless...u r juz unambitious'
but for me i m ambitious n does tt mean i m useless...
ahahaha...
I dun wan to be ambitious also...
but if ...........haix.....
this is a dreamz...something i promised her...
Maybe i juz being a fool...
but i cant break the promise made toward her!
Wat i promised her?
i promise her to earn lotz n lotz of money...
nv let anione look down on me!

I m hurt by wat my parent said...
even hurt by ....haiz...
dere's no one i can go to...
no one listen wat i wana say...
coz dey wun understand...
Accept me or just simply leave me alone...

Late at night will have lotz n lotz of thot to release out...
Don waste ur time to read n hear me grumble...
close it...haa

It's 4.23am now...
still can't get to slp...
later can't wake up...
buddy going kill me for sure...
haix...
but hack la...
dun wan to force myself to slp when i cant...
I hate being FORCE!
everyone hate tt...

Wat's wrong being a gay or a les?
it's our own choice...
own road...
own life...
own love...
why must u interfere...
WHY MUST U U U U U AND U INTERFERE!

U all think tt being a str8 sure will xin fu!
BULLSHIT!
This is my life just leave me alone can anot?!
I noe u care...
i noe i fall again n again...
but can u CONFIRM i wun fall if i m str8?
Dun bullshit with me can!
U NOT ME U WUN NOE!
but yes i admit the words from any 5 of you can hurt me...
coz i tot u all noe me but u all din...
sometime i really wan to live in my OWN world...
with no one else perhaps oni my future her with me...
Don force me...
coz i cld do anithing...
this include leaving with a backpack...
n go find my own world...
DUN FORCE ME COZ I WILL!
i have legs n hand...
i can work n support myself...
so DUN FORCE ME!
u noe once i make a decision...
i wun turn back...
no matter how hard it cld be...
i wun turn back...
so dun force me!

n by the way i nv say i going to change sex!
I just wan to be a bung...
den just let me be...
my own parents cant even stop me...
so who can?
ARGgHHhhhhhHHHh!

* The problem lies with me is being too faithful! *

Alrit alrit i stop here liao...go listen music!