{ The past }
Firstly i got to thanks the one who design and insert the player for me in my blog...currently only two song in the player...'Huo gai' and 'Wo nan guo'...eRm...will put in more song in my player in future...
This few day busy with the ending of my FYP...doing AES...report...n prepare for presentation and it's tomolo...hope everything go well for me...fri will den submit everything and that's the end of my schlin life...going to work on mon...took my attachment letter already...eRm...hope my 'boss' will be a nice person.
Went to see my liaison officer today...erm...haix ask about my past...of why do i stop schlin for a period of time...i kept dumb for few min...i don want to talk about it...i lie saying my family problem...coz i dun wan him to know what exactly happened and how silly i am...*sobx*...but his question shoot me all the way back to my past...all those in my mind reappear and all of the sudden...just dunno how to describe my feeling...how i wish i am someone with NO past...the tragic past i have keep haunting me...and once again i get hurt again and again...i thought that i could believe watever she say that she will not allow anyone to hurt me animore and she will protect my heart after so many hurt but in the end she is the one who hurt me real bad...i tot i fall again for the very first moment i realize she lie to me but yep i stand up...but...the memories haunt me...i mix up her...her...n her altogether...going crazy...going mad...dunno who is who animore...i dream of her ytd...yes i confirm is her...but i forget the content in my dreamz...as long as dey r happily outdere with their beloved...it's ok of who i am or wat i am...not at the moment...this is not the moment for anione to step into my heart coz...i m not ready...i believe but doesn't mean i m ready for r/s...I can't do anithing toward the love u gave coz m sorry...i dun wan this way...i m not ready...=>...i must settle down and ask myself did 'they' move out of my mind le? This question must have an ans before i move on...i don wan to mix everyone up again...coz i m simply crazy?...haha...=>...If i cld simply forget like how they do...i will be very glad but no my mind is repeating the scene when we are together...i can't forget and i dunno why...every single day...when i m alone and no one or when my mind trying to rest...some detail from the past r/s come back haunting me.How can dey forget in such a short time...how can someone change in a second?How can their heart be so weak and change all the time?Doesn't changes take time to react?...why to them seem like dun need ani time?Can anione tell me this?Yes everyone is different but...i still wonder why...maybe someday i will find the one who match my thinking ba.Tired...wearoff is wat i m feeling now but oni toward r/s...other den that i m happy everyday...relex...keke...oni for few min or so...the past haunt my mind...tt's all...
Hope that no one will ever ask me about my past animore...let's beyond be beyond...don mak me sad for asking my past...even to feel depressed for just a few min or hours...i don wan...i oni wan happiness...tt's all...
*Since you enter my life...i feel that i am near to happiness*
This few day busy with the ending of my FYP...doing AES...report...n prepare for presentation and it's tomolo...hope everything go well for me...fri will den submit everything and that's the end of my schlin life...going to work on mon...took my attachment letter already...eRm...hope my 'boss' will be a nice person.
Went to see my liaison officer today...erm...haix ask about my past...of why do i stop schlin for a period of time...i kept dumb for few min...i don want to talk about it...i lie saying my family problem...coz i dun wan him to know what exactly happened and how silly i am...*sobx*...but his question shoot me all the way back to my past...all those in my mind reappear and all of the sudden...just dunno how to describe my feeling...how i wish i am someone with NO past...the tragic past i have keep haunting me...and once again i get hurt again and again...i thought that i could believe watever she say that she will not allow anyone to hurt me animore and she will protect my heart after so many hurt but in the end she is the one who hurt me real bad...i tot i fall again for the very first moment i realize she lie to me but yep i stand up...but...the memories haunt me...i mix up her...her...n her altogether...going crazy...going mad...dunno who is who animore...i dream of her ytd...yes i confirm is her...but i forget the content in my dreamz...as long as dey r happily outdere with their beloved...it's ok of who i am or wat i am...not at the moment...this is not the moment for anione to step into my heart coz...i m not ready...i believe but doesn't mean i m ready for r/s...I can't do anithing toward the love u gave coz m sorry...i dun wan this way...i m not ready...=>...i must settle down and ask myself did 'they' move out of my mind le? This question must have an ans before i move on...i don wan to mix everyone up again...coz i m simply crazy?...haha...=>...If i cld simply forget like how they do...i will be very glad but no my mind is repeating the scene when we are together...i can't forget and i dunno why...every single day...when i m alone and no one or when my mind trying to rest...some detail from the past r/s come back haunting me.How can dey forget in such a short time...how can someone change in a second?How can their heart be so weak and change all the time?Doesn't changes take time to react?...why to them seem like dun need ani time?Can anione tell me this?Yes everyone is different but...i still wonder why...maybe someday i will find the one who match my thinking ba.Tired...wearoff is wat i m feeling now but oni toward r/s...other den that i m happy everyday...relex...keke...oni for few min or so...the past haunt my mind...tt's all...
Hope that no one will ever ask me about my past animore...let's beyond be beyond...don mak me sad for asking my past...even to feel depressed for just a few min or hours...i don wan...i oni wan happiness...tt's all...
*Since you enter my life...i feel that i am near to happiness*
posted by Jin yong at 5:06:00 AM
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